Friday, September 30, 2005
a sigh of relief.
It is Autumn and I am no longer obliged to follow the Sun. Instead, I am blessed with an opportunity to look inward. Gaia makes final preparations for the snowy season and the Sun spends fewer and fewer moments gazing on her beauty.
I am settling into my new apartment, I have a large East facing room with a queen sized bed (no more gym mat for me to sleep upon) and a myriad of plants and branches that I have collected or been gifted during the past year. I like to bring the outside into my living space, wake up to soft Sun, feel the cool breeze, hear leaves flutter in trees outside my window.
Nesting is a wonderful contrast to the touring fireball that was this Summer. I travelled from Festival to Festival from June 18th through September 10th, with short jaunts back to Boulder, during which I attempted to get a Massage Practice going and find and move into a new apartment. Hectic. Tumultuous. I lost the massage office after a purported office partner failed to give deposit and sign the lease. I had to move out, my heart broke, my anchor was torn from my root. no office, no home, just stuff and travelling. All of the chaos tried Michael and my relationship, and we are still recovering from all of the transition. But, we are home now.
We live in town and tend to bike most places now. Refreshing. Being such a hermit by habit, it is wonderful for me to be in the action, just a short peddle away from downtown and friends. I live two blocks from John Knowles and see Nathaniel Vose at Naropa events and for tea every so often. I have a wonderful group of friends and am really trying to reach out and make connections now that I am back in town.
I went to Burning Man and I could either write an entire book on my experience or jsut throw out some sort of train of thought list. I will do the latter, but first I have to recommend that anyone and everyone go at least once in your life, it is mind blowing an transcendental and even if it is all suffering, it is completely worth it. Expansive journey, DJS, events, fire dancing, theater, stilt walkers and dancers, acrobatics, circuses, dust and nakedness, water trucks to bath behind, bikes, goggles, amazing art and demonstrations of creativity, boundless, sexual liberation, sex as a creative act, beauty, profanity, obscenity, scalding days, cold cold nights, costumes, alter egos, trueselves, swings and community, gifting and sharing, humanness, healing camps, stages, roving art sculptures, tension, conflict, love, breaking through judgment, limitation, and expectation, Ayahuasca fairies and flowers and vines and experiencing every aspect of the feminine possible, remembering my shamanessness, screaming, fighting, playing, fucking, drinking water and warm smoothies, eating not much, but peanut butter and food bars, learning, expanding, realization, giving, becoming.
haaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh. yes.
and now, home. For work I am an oddjobber. I landscape, massage, babysit, pick up mail and send it off again, write resumes for steady work as a Massage therapist, am acting in a film called Unknown (I am in the first scene only, a bathroom suicide scene, very fun, we film on Saturday.), am beginning to model again, just getting started gathering pictures for a portfolio and getting my runway walk up to snuff. I am a busy woman, and it feels so good to be making money every day and paying bills, not withdrawing cash from my credit cards every week and digging myself into debt quickly. Now I get to start shovelling myself out. I plan to make an altar to the credit card gods on which to place my monthly offerings to placate them.
what else.
I tried smoking cigarettes for two days. It didn't work out. My body yelled at me. But, it was a good experiment. recover some of my lost adolescence.
well, I think that is pretty much the full story. If anyone wants to visit, come on down, I would love to host you, explore Boulder and other places with you. I imagine I will be here for at least another year. My momentum is just building.
Love to everyone.
Christina
2325 19th Street, Apt. C
Boulder, CO 80304
303.257.7679 cell
It is Autumn and I am no longer obliged to follow the Sun. Instead, I am blessed with an opportunity to look inward. Gaia makes final preparations for the snowy season and the Sun spends fewer and fewer moments gazing on her beauty.
I am settling into my new apartment, I have a large East facing room with a queen sized bed (no more gym mat for me to sleep upon) and a myriad of plants and branches that I have collected or been gifted during the past year. I like to bring the outside into my living space, wake up to soft Sun, feel the cool breeze, hear leaves flutter in trees outside my window.
Nesting is a wonderful contrast to the touring fireball that was this Summer. I travelled from Festival to Festival from June 18th through September 10th, with short jaunts back to Boulder, during which I attempted to get a Massage Practice going and find and move into a new apartment. Hectic. Tumultuous. I lost the massage office after a purported office partner failed to give deposit and sign the lease. I had to move out, my heart broke, my anchor was torn from my root. no office, no home, just stuff and travelling. All of the chaos tried Michael and my relationship, and we are still recovering from all of the transition. But, we are home now.
We live in town and tend to bike most places now. Refreshing. Being such a hermit by habit, it is wonderful for me to be in the action, just a short peddle away from downtown and friends. I live two blocks from John Knowles and see Nathaniel Vose at Naropa events and for tea every so often. I have a wonderful group of friends and am really trying to reach out and make connections now that I am back in town.
I went to Burning Man and I could either write an entire book on my experience or jsut throw out some sort of train of thought list. I will do the latter, but first I have to recommend that anyone and everyone go at least once in your life, it is mind blowing an transcendental and even if it is all suffering, it is completely worth it. Expansive journey, DJS, events, fire dancing, theater, stilt walkers and dancers, acrobatics, circuses, dust and nakedness, water trucks to bath behind, bikes, goggles, amazing art and demonstrations of creativity, boundless, sexual liberation, sex as a creative act, beauty, profanity, obscenity, scalding days, cold cold nights, costumes, alter egos, trueselves, swings and community, gifting and sharing, humanness, healing camps, stages, roving art sculptures, tension, conflict, love, breaking through judgment, limitation, and expectation, Ayahuasca fairies and flowers and vines and experiencing every aspect of the feminine possible, remembering my shamanessness, screaming, fighting, playing, fucking, drinking water and warm smoothies, eating not much, but peanut butter and food bars, learning, expanding, realization, giving, becoming.
haaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh. yes.
and now, home. For work I am an oddjobber. I landscape, massage, babysit, pick up mail and send it off again, write resumes for steady work as a Massage therapist, am acting in a film called Unknown (I am in the first scene only, a bathroom suicide scene, very fun, we film on Saturday.), am beginning to model again, just getting started gathering pictures for a portfolio and getting my runway walk up to snuff. I am a busy woman, and it feels so good to be making money every day and paying bills, not withdrawing cash from my credit cards every week and digging myself into debt quickly. Now I get to start shovelling myself out. I plan to make an altar to the credit card gods on which to place my monthly offerings to placate them.
what else.
I tried smoking cigarettes for two days. It didn't work out. My body yelled at me. But, it was a good experiment. recover some of my lost adolescence.
well, I think that is pretty much the full story. If anyone wants to visit, come on down, I would love to host you, explore Boulder and other places with you. I imagine I will be here for at least another year. My momentum is just building.
Love to everyone.
Christina
2325 19th Street, Apt. C
Boulder, CO 80304
303.257.7679 cell
